Day 2-

I didn't get a lot of sleep last night. Mom coughed a lot and moaned quite a bit during the night. It worried me, so I was up by her bedside most of the night. Today, mom slept a lot again. They have started tapering her blood pressure medicine but she seems to be doing okay. I talked to her a little bit and told her how I tired I knew she was. And that if she didn't want to do this anymore, I would understand...and be okay. She just shook her head and said okay. I am still unsure as to know if what she is thinking. I know she wants to fight, and she told Aunt Patti that she thinks she will stick around, but I know that she is tired. She made a comment to Aunt Patti the other day that this was not living, and we know that it is not. I am praying that Heavenly Father will just do what he feels best. Robert and the kids are leaving Friday to come up. Part of me thinks that I could tell him not to bother, she is going to be okay, but I am not sure yet. He is bringing Dad and Ric too. Rick had to get permission from his parole officer to come. It is funny, cause I wasn't sure to tell Rick and Robert is the one who asked me about bringing him. He did that yesterday. Dad called Rick and told him and I talked to him briefly last night. He called again today to let me know that he got permission to come. I think it will be good for both of them to see each other. I know they need closure on the things of the past. Even if she is not ready to leave this earth, it still is a good thing.

My Mom....

I have been so bad about journaling, it saddens me to think of the things that I am failing to write down. It hurts even more that I am only starting up again because of the things that has made me realize life is precious. Life can be pretty challenging sometimes. Right now I am sitting in the ICU with my mom. I flew up today because yesterday my mom was taken to the hospital. She is septic and is very sick. They say she has merca and the meds she is on are keeping her alive. Her blood pressure dropped super low and she was throwing up blood. Not exactly sure what happened, all we know is that she is sick. Aunt Patti called me while I was at work yesterday and I got the message as I was leaving. She said she wasn't sure if I needed to come cause mom said she wasn't going anywhere. Yet, at 1200 Aunt Patti called me to tell me that she thinks I better come up. Mom had said that this felt different and that I would be so mad if she died and I wasn't there. We bought the plane ticket at 1:00 in the morning. I was able to get a great deal because Robert is Military and the ticket was only 200 dollars. Robert is so cute though, cause he said it didn't matter how much it cost. My whole flight I prayed that I would make it...dreading getting here too late. When I got here, they were getting her ready for an MRI to make sure that she wasn't bleeding in her head and to check out the pain and redness on her left hip. When I walked in, she opened her eyes, smiled and said hi...then she went back to sleep. Her blood pressure was extremely low, but they were giving her medicine to raise it. When she came back from the MRI...she still slept. She is sleeping now...and seems to be doing okay. Her blood pressure is ok...and her pulse is a little high, but okay. I am going to stay here with her.

Autumn is Here!!

Autumn is my favorite season. I love the coolness in the morning, the colors changing on the leaves and Halloween. It is may favorite holiday. Not exactly sure why, but I believe it has always been. I know it was my grandma's favorite season too.
So much has been going on, that there is no way that I could ever catch up on. Football is over...which I am bummed about, yet relieved. It was a long season for our boys. The organization was new, and they suffered many losses. Robby isn't sure if he wants to play again next year, but Michael absolutely loves it! Michael scored his first touchdown this and they won that game. Which turned out to be the only win of the season. Unfortunately Robert missed the game because he was in Kentucky on assignment. Our good friend Robert recorded the touchdown. I did too...but when I realized that it was Michael making the catch in the end zone, I forgot to move the video camera on him..so I got the sky and then him running it through! it was pretty awesome. School is full force and the kids are doing pretty well. Robby is really enjoying the KSAT program. I requires a lot of focus and organization, which he is still working on, but he is doing really well. All A's and B's. Michael is getting all A's right now. And Elisa is still adjusting to Johnson. She is still upset with the move, even though she has made some new friends. I received a promotion from work, and am now the lead teacher for the almost 4 year olds. It is a little different than my two year olds, and I miss them. But I am having a good time. Robert also got a new job. He travels a little bit with this one, but when he is not traveling, he is home usually before 5 and on the weekends. Which is really nice. This year has gone by so quickly it is crazy. It makes me so sad to think that I haven't been keeping up on my journaling and my blog. I guess face book has taken over, yet I don't even know if that is the case. I think it is just busy life. I am still in school, and realize that I only have 7 more classes and I will have my Bachelors. So, my life will not slow down any time soon....someday I will look back and want the busyness back I am sure. Until, then....I will just keep going one day at a time!
(no pictures this time...they are all on the other computer!) I will get them on next post. Hopefully it won't be months till then. :)

Too much to catch up on...

Well, so much has gone on since my last post, that I don't think I can really catch up. I feel so terrible that I have been so bad about blogging. This is such an important part of my life and keeping a journal. I really don't know why I have let it go so long. Life really gets so busy, that I just don't seem to have enough time to do all the things that I want to do.

I am not really sure even where to begin, so I will just start with the biggest part. We moved into a new home here in Texas. We tried to buy it, but that fell through and we were able to rent it. I am super excited because after looking at so many houses this one is the one I really wanted. It is a bit smaller than the one we were in, but it fits our family well, and it is nice. Here are some pictures of the downstairs. There is still much to do, like hang pictures and finish decorating, but in general it is together. We got new furniture as well and as a added bonus, they had a deal that if we bought the "room" we got a free TV. So, Robert is in Heaven. I will add pictures of rooms and the upstairs at a later date.

My Kitchen


The backyard-playing a bean bag game that dad brought home.

My Living room-and Robert's TV

The Dining room

Swimming

We just finished up swimming and the boys did so awesome! It was a great year, except it went by super fast! Michael made divisionals this year again and Robby just missed it. Michael took 1st place for his age group in the Butterfly....watch out Michael Phelps! He also earned the teams Iron Man award which is given to the member that contributes not only physically but emotionally to the team. He definately was very motivating to others on the team. Robby earned most improved this year. He worked really hard. Seeing as he went up in an age bracket he had to work extra hard to compete with the others in that age division. Coach Alex was very impressed with his efforts and contribution to the team...as we are! Way to go boys!

To celebrate the boys acheivments we went to The Tower of America's with our good friends the Kings. Robert told Michael before each IM(individual medley race) that if he beat Justice, then he would take him anywhere for dinner. Well, Michael chose The Tower. Before one race, he told Justice, "hey, don't you want to go dinner at the Tower?....let me win and I will take you!" Well, Justice never gave in, but it was fun. So, we thought we would celebrate and go together. The boys had a great time and the food, yet overpriced, was pretty yummy.

Ok...there is tons more to share, but I need to do some homework..Yeah, I am still going to school, and my class just started up. I hope that I will be able to catch up with pictures and I will try and post a little each day...or so. No promises though.

I hope all is well with everyone...stay tuned! More to come!

Change.

Well, as you can see I updated our picture. This was taken on Halloween...we had a great time. I love Halloween. I wanted to take a new picture today on Valentines day, in our Sunday best with all my boys wearing matching red ties and Elisa and I in our pink shirts, but Robert had to work and then we just enjoyed a lazy day at home. So, that picture will have to wait. I have officially grounded myself from facebook until I update my blog...and this does not count. I have about 100 photos to sort through and put on here that explain what we have all been up to the last few months. I just feel so terrible about not posting at all. I honestly do not know where our time goes. School and work keep me busy and the kids of course...but I really only have myself to blame. I just need to make it a priority to update this seeing as it is my journal. I have so much to share I just don't know where to begin. I am going to work on the picture collages this week and hopefully have something to post here soon. Hope all is well....

Jaguar Football-

Michael's first season of football was awesome!! He loved playing. When he started, he seemed so small and timid, but by about week 3 or 4 he was running and playing as if he had been playing for years. He was not one of the starters in the beginning but ended the season as such. He played fullback and really proved himself. The team struggled yet had a great season and made it to the championships. Unfortunatly the team lost in the first round. I know that Michael learned so much and had an experience of a lifetime. He wanted to play spring ball really bad, but we talked him into playing baseball. He will play again in the fall. Here are some pics throughout the season.

Still alive! I promise!!

Hi everyone!!
This is going to be the shortest blog post I have ever done, but I felt so bad seeing that I havn't posted since the 9th and even that was short. Life has been super busy for us. Football season is AWESOME, but very time consuming. Now Basketball has started up. I am going for my Bachelors degree. Robert works crazy hours and days and I got a full time job.!! Wheeww!
I have a ton of pictures of our past month or so. I have so much to share, I really don't know where to start...so bare with me! I will post pics soon and the scoop on us all!
Till then.....