Day 2-

I didn't get a lot of sleep last night. Mom coughed a lot and moaned quite a bit during the night. It worried me, so I was up by her bedside most of the night. Today, mom slept a lot again. They have started tapering her blood pressure medicine but she seems to be doing okay. I talked to her a little bit and told her how I tired I knew she was. And that if she didn't want to do this anymore, I would understand...and be okay. She just shook her head and said okay. I am still unsure as to know if what she is thinking. I know she wants to fight, and she told Aunt Patti that she thinks she will stick around, but I know that she is tired. She made a comment to Aunt Patti the other day that this was not living, and we know that it is not. I am praying that Heavenly Father will just do what he feels best. Robert and the kids are leaving Friday to come up. Part of me thinks that I could tell him not to bother, she is going to be okay, but I am not sure yet. He is bringing Dad and Ric too. Rick had to get permission from his parole officer to come. It is funny, cause I wasn't sure to tell Rick and Robert is the one who asked me about bringing him. He did that yesterday. Dad called Rick and told him and I talked to him briefly last night. He called again today to let me know that he got permission to come. I think it will be good for both of them to see each other. I know they need closure on the things of the past. Even if she is not ready to leave this earth, it still is a good thing.